Happy!

I do not think the good times every left,
I do not think my happiness was every in doubt,
I do not think a smile was truly ever out of my grasp
I do not think the warmth of a puppy snuggle was every too far away,

I love waking up in these good moods,
I love looking forward to the day,
I love smiling about how sore I am because I over did it in the gym,
I love wondering what shall I do next,

I love sitting on my computer for hours chatting with a great friend because she is off on her own adventure,
I love feeling comfortable enough with a select few to share some of my most intimate feelings,

I hope I can keep this momentum going,
I hope those who have been there for me know just how much I love and appreciate them,
I hope I do not forget how great this energy flowing through me feels,
I hope I can help those who need it as much as they have helped me,

I did not ever give up I just merely stumbled along my path,
I did not ever lose faith, I simply asked why,
I did not ever doubt that there was a lesson to be learned, I just had trouble wrapping my head around it,
I did not ever stop hoping for better days, but I did get stuck,

I believe that the worst of it is over,
I believe that I am opening up to another again and it feels so good,
I believe my inner-strength has grown,
I believe that it had to happen as much as that still pains me to say,

I know without some of you I may not have made it,
I know that a dear friend shared his strength with me when I did not have enough of my own,
I know and finally believe that is was not all my fault,
I know that in my moments of weakness my Lord came to me with an open heart and comforted me,

I am so grateful to those who took a chance on me,
I am so grateful to those who gave me my new career,
I am so grateful for those new people in my life, who believe in me and support me,
I am so grateful that I feel like I am where I am suppose to be,


I am so humbled by the love and affection she has been giving me,
I am so humbled that she swept my little slip up under the rug,
I am so humbled that she is willing to drive 90 miles to come see me,
I am so humbled by the patience she has demonstrated,

I love this energy,
I love that I feel good,
I love that I will drink the occasional vodka-Redbull so I can keep up with her,
I love that I am once again looking forward to my days,

I appreciate what I have been going through,
I appreciate the tools I have been given to write these words,
I appreciate you, right now for reading my words, Thank you,
I appreciate the warm comforting feeling of the coffee and I sit here and write,

I am so happy to be sharing something other than my sorrows,
I am so happy that my family added two new members,
I am so excited to get back to Minnesota in less than two months,
I am so excited to say GOODBYE:

I hope she knows how grateful I am for our 7 years together,
I hope I continue to let her go and send her the light and love she deserves,
I wish her only the best and may she find in her heart what I could not give her.

I want to share this here even though its on my front page, it feels very fitting:

Love can and will come to those who still believe in it. Hope is the key. Even when faced with disappointment love will still find a way. Even after betrayal love will still knock on your door. Love will come to those who have been hurt before. I will never give up on love. I will even love those who no longer love me. Love is all there is and all there ever will be. -me