Opportunities can present themselves in the strangest ways sometimes,
As the sheer panic and anxiety increased so did the chance to conquer them,
This is not about me,
I need to focus,
I need to act quickly,
In an instant all negativity is vanished,
Those feelings were wisped away like a leaf in the wind,
I would do anything for you,
Praying to God that everything will be o.k.
Practically on my knees begging for mercy,
Wishing we were not alone,
Asking for help and strength,
Asking to not be alone,
Asking to understand,
Asking what I need to do,
In that moment it came to me like a light being switched on,
Instantaneous confidence, a reassurance that we are not alone,
A sense of strength that I know I need right now,
Feeling love in the most perfect form,
Tears rolling down as I hold your hand,
Calm racing through my body, anxiety decreasing,
Concentrating on what matters,
Amazingly my head does not hurt at all,
There is a desire burning within me,
In a strange way this unfortunate situation is the perfect opportunity,
Knowing more than ever that this is the time,
Seeing the perfection in the way the things unfolded,
A chance to close the gap,
An occasion to be what you keep saying you want to be,
The time for us to be what we know we can be,
Moving forward with a clean slate,
There is a certain beauty in the way the Universe works,
A unique perfection if one is willing to step back,
Every situation good or bad is an opportunity for growth,
There is help if we simply surrender and ask,
It is undeniable that love is the answer,
Love is all we every need.
Anthony,
ReplyDeleteIt seems like you and I have grown in a similar spiritual direction over the years. I am as sure as I ever have been of the presence of, for the lack of a better word, the divine. But I can't think of God as a person anymore (even thought I'll pray with words, as if talking to a person). The whole "creating God in man's image" thing is too prone to abuse for my tastes.
I have come to understand that, at least for me, the manifestation of God in the world is through a universal power of love and force of life. (I know, just like Star Wars!). The power of meditation and prayer lies in our ability to align our "spiritual molecules" with that force and power. Jesus, the Buddha, Mohammad were all perfectly lined up with that stuff of life and love. When I'm aligned (always imperfectly) I am a part of the solution. When the "devils" of fear or anger are running the show, I'm part of the problem.
That's why I have come to appreciate the idea of "practicing" religion. It's not about what we believe. It's about how we are present.
Your piece above perfectly illustrates that idea of being aligned with life and love, even in painful and difficult situations. It's definitely not easy, even in the best of times. But, I guess that's why they call it practice. We're never perfect. We are affected by forces outside of ourselves. But one thing we can control and attempt to "master" is our mindfulness. So I truly admire your presence in whatever you were struggling with.
In addition to being inspirational, your piece is beautifully written. I'm glad to be one of your "followers", Anthony. But I'm not drinkin' any kool aid. :-)
Peace.