I am in the mood to write but I do not feel the inspiration,
And yet I find it comforting to open up my heart, relax my mind, and pour my thoughts into this computer,
I have always enjoyed writing. Short stories were a pure pleasure of mine growing up. Journaling has been something I have done consistently for as long as I can remember.
Do I really need a reason to write?
Do I need to experience a moment in my life that stops me before I am willing to find myself in front of this screen?
Why do I not just keep writing for the shear pleasure of it? Why not write because it brings me joy?
I love how when I write I feel free. I love how when I write I am so willing to let my guard down and actually face whatever feelings I am having; good or bad. I love how when I write I keep the left corner of my mouth open with my tongue gently touching my lips.
I love when the creative juices get flowing. It is a great place to be when that little voice within me takes over and it is like I am just taking notes for someone else. What a great place to be when you feel like you are on the verge of something great. The words just seem to flow.
Does it even matter if anyone read this? Perhaps I will not even share it. There are so many previous escapades already saved on to my hard drive that will never find their way to my blog.
What freedom a journal offers. No restrictions, no fears, for many of us it is the only place we can truly be us. For those who do not use them I almost feel sorry because until you get lost in a rambling of your own words you miss out on the power they hold.
We can let our dark side come out with no fear of repercussion. My private world may scare some of you and yet I hope some are willing to dive in with me and find out that there is more to me than I sometimes let on.
My journal is also my place to pat myself on the back. Huge accomplishments that I do not want to ever let go. And even the small ones. My journal is such a fun place to toot my own horn. I am not arrogant or cocky, I know I am good and this is my place to tell myself that.
I am happy today. I have been happy a lot lately. My head has not been hurting as much. I am moving in the right direction and I am taking satisfaction in that. My moods are much higher. Those around me have noticed. I am trying to light up others days with the positive vibes I have been feeling. I almost feel like lately I have been blessed with this gift of helping others raise their vibration. I want to help others. Nothing amazing just put a smile on their faces, perhaps a few butterflies in the tummy. I want them to feel my good mood. I want to feel their good moods, share in that energy and watch us both shine.
Trying to let go of all wounds, and not worry about ones that may come my way. Instead I have been enjoying this moment right here and now. I have been breathing more, reading more, observing more.
In this instant, right here, right now, there is so much going on, it is such a shame so many of us get caught up in the whirlwinds of yesterday. It is even harder on us when we start wasting energy worrying about days yet to come.
Toady has been great. I smiled today, I found reasons to feel good today. Even when I was worried today, I came out on top and realized I did not need to get caught up in those feelings but rather thank them for what they showed me and then simply let them go.
I love to write. I love trying to keep up with what is going on in my mind. I love wondering if anyone reading this is keeping up with me?