Moving on...

I have a desire to come back,

I feel this California adventure may be coming to an end,

The journey has been amazing,

The memories will never be forgotten,

I will visit often, 

I know I will miss the smell of the ocean and the feel of the sand between my toes on the beach,

I will daydream often about the beautiful sunsets,

I know I will think I am crazy when I once again feel the bitter cold,

I will daydream often about those special places I have come to love so much,

I discovered so much about myself in the last nine years,

I have swam to the depths of my soul,

I have soared to the heavens,

I  have drown in my sorrows,

I have made some incredible friends that I will miss dearly,

Trained some amazing people who I grew so close to,

Been to the best spots California has to offer,

I have done my best to take this state for all it has to offer,

I have traveled the world,

Been to places I would have never imagined I would go,

I have stood side by side with my brothers and faced fear head on,

I have witnessed indescribable destruction and violence,

And yet I also witnessed a beautiful display of unity and strength as we came together to make sure we made it back home,

I fell down drunk in the streets of South Korea,

Ate food so spicy I thought my face was melting,

I got a glimpse of Germany and a taste of Ireland,

Ate sushi and drank Saki in Japan,

I broke my back,

I never gave up,

I got migraines,

I stayed strong,

I blew a hernia,

I realized sometimes I need to slow down,

I broke my body,

I broke my mind,

I lost my spirit,

And yet I never gave up,

I fell in love,

Married that love,

Pushed it to the edge,

And watched it slip away,

I cried a river,

I got so mad I could feel it in my veins,

I laughed so hard my stomach hurt,

I had so much fun I felt high,

I tried to snowboard,

Ran a mountain,

Rode a segway,

And tried to stand up and paddle board,

A rattlesnake almost took me out,

I came face to face with a mountain lion,

Had to keep the coyotes away,

And watched in amazement as the dolphins danced in the sea,

I walked in the ocean,

Jogged in the sand,

Ran in the street,

And play in the snow,

I ate the best fish tacos,

I have meet so many amazing people,

Attended some of the best concerts of my life,

And smoked some of California’s finest weed,

I eagerly finished my bachelor’s,

Am grinding out my masters,

Became a certified personal trainer,

And out performed the rest,

Opened my mind up to a new way of thinking,

Started to believe in the power of meditation,

Discovered the power of the law of attraction,

Found my way back to My God,

I have found myself,

I am happy with who I am and who I am becoming,

I believe in myself and the way my life is headed,

I am proud of myself for the work I put in,

At times I damn near quit,

I was certain it would never get better,

But the spirit in me is strong,

The spirit in me never let me stop hoping, stop believing,

I found support from my family,

I found strength in my friends,

I found compassion from my God,

I found happiness from my boys,

I know I miss my family,

I know I miss my friends,

I know my heart is pulling me in another new direction,

I know that even if it does not happen now it will happen soon,

I love the laughs I just had,

I love being close to those who are so special to me,

I love the desire and hope that she has stirred up in me,

I so treasure those moments with those close to me,

I look forward to the days ahead,

I believe I know where I am suppose to go,

I know it will all workout it the end,

I love all that I have become.